this is one of the super rare occasions i'll be writing something about books or reading - as i've mentioned before, i'm not really a book person - so this'll be short and sweet.
just want to share some books that caught my fancy while browsing at page one earlier this evening.
the broker by john grisham
it's grisham, what else is there to say, but it's the only author i've really read. plus, this book is not his usual courtroom drama piece so it's something worth checking out.
you're hired: how to succeed in business and life by bill rancic
of the three winners of the apprentice, bill seems to be the most promising. so it's no surprise he landed a book deal. i read through the first few pages and his approach to this self-help business book seemed light, interesting and compelling.
a long way down by nick hornby
i enjoyed his writing style when i read about a boy, so i'm hoping his latest book will be an enjoyable read and won't be a disappointment. it's simple as that.
there, three books that caught my fancy. three books that i'm contemplating on buying. now, question is where - in manila where they're cheaper or here in hk?
books
antibiotics
i guess, stress is getting to me badly.
dropped by the doctor's clinic earlier and the diagnosis: pharyngitis. had it midweek last week; went away over the weekend; resurfaced again yesterday - this time with something extra.
although my tonsils aren't inflammed, the doc saw some white discs on it indicating some form of infection. so the prescription: a number of pills and a 5-day dose of antibiotics.
don't know why, but the sound of being prescribed antibiotics got me all excited. finally, some potent drugs!
you see, hk doctors usually give out otc sort of drugs that merely relieve symptoms. a real bummer for someone who's so used to popping antibiotics at the first sign of throat problems.
can't blame me. whenever i nurse a throat infection, i get a fever that shoots up way past 39 or 40 degrees. and it's not the best situation to be in. so now that i'm living alone 700 miles away from home, the absence of antibiotics gets me all paranoid everytime my throat acts up.
so on my way to the doc's clinic, i was really crossing my fingers that this time, he'll give me antibiotics because i have a weird gut feel about my throat problem this time around. and gladly, he did.
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on other matters, after trying to ignore it since it premiered, i gave in and watched rockstar: inxs last week. i wasn't fully disappointed and was blown away by mig's heartfelt performance, which i kept on replaying on msn. his encore performance was so well deserved.
jordis also caught my attention. unfortunately, she was a big disappointment this week. her (awful) performance just left me cold. but i still hope she'll stay in the competition.
in contrast, ty taylor is super dooper getting to my nerves. pardon me for saying this, but he's an overly conceited black bitch! enough said.
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and finally, reading my post from monday, i couldn't help but think that i'm such a drama queen. i guess, i was just very stressed and emotional when i wrote that entry. after giving it some thought, things don't seem to be really that bad. yes, i may be very frustrated about my love life (or lack of it). but for me to make a dramatic deal about it seems a little overboard.
single
it's one of those (all too familiar) days again. i feel dreadful emotionally. i'm again feeling depressed about how pathetic my personal life is.
maybe it's lack of sleep. maybe it's the ultra-dreary weather this past week. maybe it's too much stress at work. maybe it's because my throat is still acting up. maybe it's learning that in spite of practically killing myself working out at the gym, i still got 3kg of excess fat (unchanged or even more compared to early this year, if i may add). maybe it's a combination of all these.
weird, ang jologs, but it all started while i was having my weekly marathon of the week's episodes of homeboy. i was watching this episode with alma moreno, raffy chan and pia moran na mega flashback to the 80s - body dancer, rico mambo, body language. i was reminiscing and having a very good laugh.
then it suddenly hit me - i was alone, there was no one i can share my laughter with. hindi ba mas masayang tumawa pag may kasabay kang tumawa.
yes, i've got good friends and people around me who keep me company and whom i can have a good time with. but i guess, it's really different if you have an emotional connection with someone special.
i thought i was fine being single, that i'm happy and content being around friends, and that i've moved past that point of depression and desperation. well, obviously, i was wrong.
i've managed to mask it, even rationalize it that maybe i'm single because i'm not yet ready, that things will just fall into place when i'm ready. but i guess, you can only supress things and rationalize for so long.
all i've wanted is to live a good life, to be financially stable so i can support my parents as they grow old, to be a trusted close friend for some, and to be with someone i can grow old with.
so far, i think i've met 3 of my four life goals. it pains me and frustrates me. all i wish for now is to find that one last piece to make my existence complete. all i'm wishing for now is a life-long partner whom i can share life's quirks no matter how weird they can get.
i'll surely be content with my life by then.