weekend thoughts

it's the third straight saturday that i started early. wish they really move the rockstar workout to a later time. but i guess, the high that i get from the class is really so worth effort.

*****

was quite upset on saturday. i was really looking forward to something since midweek but, in the end, it fell through.

now, i still am a bit upset - and sad. and according to a friend that i met up for dinner tonight, it is really apparent in my eyes.

but i'm gradually cooling down. just needs time.

*****

it may sound weird, but i spent a good hour or so midnight last night assembling a bedside table that i got from ikea. i guess, it was a way of helping me cope with being upset. stress release maybe?

everything was a breeze until it came to installing it to the bed. i was lying on the floor and pushing up - as if i'm repairing the underside of the car. it wasn't perfect, but i think i did a pretty satisfactory job.

*****

earlier today, i got tired of my usual weekend homecooked lunch fare (read, mix-match something only mark can eat). didn't feel like doing take-away either. so i experimented and tried cooking chicken hula courtesy of the del monte kitchenomics website.

encountered a couple of bumps along the way. recipe called for carrots and saba. got carrots from the grocery but couldn't seem to find the peeler so back to the ref it went.

and apparently "emperor bananas" aren't saba. so when i fried it, i ended up having gooey bananas that taste awful so i just dumped them.

anyhow, here's the result.

not as good as what's on the website, but i'm okay with how it turned out.

vegetative state

maybe i'm dead stressed. but i've been in a vegetative state the past two long weekends. don't know why, but my energy level have been awfully low.

maybe it's my body trying to conserve calories as a result of skipping a couple of dinners, changing my diet (either veggies or oatmeals only after gym), and increasing my cardio workouts. but i just feel awfully tired.

on friday, after heading for a noon appointment in central and catching mi3 mid-afternoon, i suddenly found myself tired and lacking of energy. so while the rest of the gang went on to do some shopping and dinner, i opted to head home and rest - at 6pm.

yesterday was fairly better. again, it was a relatively early start. headed to the gym at noon to attend the nike rockstar workout hiphop - i'm now quite obsessed with joining dance classes (and so looking forward to the upcoming nike rockstar workout sol).

after running an errand in the afternoon, i again found myself running low on energy. so i headed home, and took a short nap while waiting for my laundry to finish.

that was a much needed nap for the night's activity. it was ivy's house warming party at dbay.

the night started well around 8pm-ish...


soy and i in the kitchen (i suddenly became the "designated florist" for the night)


the hk crew


another photo of the hk crew


... but later in the night, after a couple of shots and drinks, people are bound to do crazy things ...


gary and i just goofing off


jane-y and i doing new york-new york kicks to the sound of paul anka (sorry legs got cut-off)


... including taking photos of body parts just for fun ...


my leg as foreground


my shoes and jane-y's shoes

... after a night of just chilling-out, we caught the 2am ferry back to "civilization". and i finally got home around 4am.

today was just spent vegetating here at home - although i took an hour or so this afternoon to practice the rockstar workout hiphop routine (told you i'm obsessed). we're putting together part 1 and 2 of the choreography on saturday.

and for the first time in months, i fell asleep while watching tv earlier tonight!

this whole "running low on energy" thing is really getting weird.

kontrobersyal

i got the chance to watch last friday's episode of kontrobersyal on puerto galera.

to say that i'm disturbed is an understatement. i'm totally upset.

you see, the episode's first feature was an expose about gays having public sex in an area along the white beach they call "jurassic".

okay, i understand some people may find such acts disgusting (i don't) - so i don't blame them for coming out with an "expose" about this.

but as the segment progressed, what was a simple "expose" became a stupid and shallow moralism on being gay. hypocrites!

hiding behind a psychologist and a professor, the people behind the segement tried to advocate a demented - and shall i say, very malicious - view on gays and gay sexual conduct.

they said that there is something wrong with being gay. that engaging in gay public sex and/or orgies is plain immaturity. and that anyone feeling homosexual attraction should seek professional help to change it, because it's only a stage, and it's bad if one gets stuck in that stage.

FUCKING HELL - this is total bullshit!

fact is, gays just like ordinary men, have a biological urge for sex. some choose to act on it, others choose to repress it, while others are just plain naive and unaware.

fact is, being gay is not a just a stage. it's a totality of being. we just are (excuse my philosophical allusion) - and there's nothing wrong with it. besides, there's nothing wrong with being at peace with yourself and feeling free.

NEWS FLASH: pinoy society has just regressed 65,000 decades back to the dark ages!

these kinds of highly irresponsible messages and misinformation breed more intolerance towards gays.

rather than make closeted gays come out, or at the very least make them feel more comfortable about themselves and accept themselves, they are further driven into the closet.

rather than make people understand more about gays, and make them more accepting of people like us and our colorful lifestyle - love for the fine things in life, fashion and shopping included - we are further stigmatized and/or ostracized.

SHAME on the writers and producers of kontrobersyal! and most especially, shame on boy abunda for allowing himself to be used by these holier-than-thou fuckwits!