quit

found some time saturday night to squeeze in a trip to the cinema to watch brokeback mountain - finally.

"i wish i knew how to quit you!" may be one of the film's most popular dialogues. but this particular line is also closest to home. and tonight this exact sentiment struck even closer.

i was already warned "no expectations = no dissappointment" but i did and still do. so i end up feeling down and unhappy.

i'm writing this with some heaviness inside. rationally i shouldn't be feeling this way since there's really no logical basis to start with. but reality is, i feel quite upset.

i guess, if you really put your heart and mind on someone, you start to hope and expect - especially when you see that there's a connection and you enjoy each moment. unfortunately, things -sometimes - don't usually go your way, and it does lead to disappointment.

i guess, this is all a product of naivete, maybe immaturity. but i just can't help it, i wish i know how to take things slow, i wish i know to take things less seriously, i wish i know how to quit you.

screwed up holiday

okay okay okay, i do miss people back home and i wanted to spend my birthday with them. yes, i'm turning 27 on the 27th.

so i have this grand plan of simply spending a weekend with peeps back home - my folks and my closest friends. just an intimate time together to chat and have food, drinks and lots of laughter. as an added bonus, lhasyus just gave birth (congrats!!!) and i want to catch up on her.

but things fell through.

i confirmed my bookings in early march - usual battle plan, fly out friday night the 24th then back to hk on tuesday night or wednesday night. ticket deadline was march 6. but i was in shanghai on the 6th, busy with iic and the launch party (more kwento in my next post). so i totally forgot about the automatic cancellation.

friday, i called my agent to confirm and get the ticket issued. she informed me that all outbound flights for that weekend are full. hayop, lahat ata ng pinoy sa hk e may kamag-anak na gagraduate! so i had to look for alternatives.

one option was to fly out first thing on saturday morning (well, it's actually 11am). i got a confirmed seat on that flight, but i have to make sure this is ok with my parents, especially since they are among the people i wanted to be with.

and then i found out my dad can't be in manila on the 27th - he's now based in tarlac helping out with my tito's piggery business. he has to hold the fort while my tito's on a business trip until april 5th.

so there, plan b didn't work out either. so finally, plan c. i've decided to fly out on april 4th instead and stay until the 9th. but murphy's law was very much at work. apparently, all flights in april until easter are already fully booked.

then there was a glimmer of hope. after checking further, i found out that all seats under the cheaper 14-day fare class are booked, but then there were available seats on the 30-day booking class, which are pricier by only hk$200. so i booked myself and had confirmed seats.

there, so my itinerary is hkg-mnl april 4, mnl-hkg april 9. hopefully, things will go smoothly from this point on. updates to come next week.

good riddance!

finally, the cocky narcissistic bastard gedeon mckiney is out of AI5!!! i must admit, he is a very very good singer and performer, but he's just too egotistical and arrogant for my liking. good riddance!

anyways, this year's finalists are such a good bunch with lots of talented singers that it's hard to really root for one. but if i were to choose one guy and one girl, i'd definitely put my money on chris daughtry and mandisa. kebs ace young!!!